The Bomb Dropped...

Mr. Three is wonderful, don't get me wrong, but he dropped a bomb on me lately that has me sitting back confused. Sadly enough, I can't fully divulge in the reasoning behind it.

Lets just say, we might not be together for very long.

He's hit a crossroad in his life, and I guess I'm a "test" for him. He told me he enjoys the late night conversations, and speaking about the future plans that we may have, but there's something that may end up pulling us apart, which makes me nervous. I kind of wish that I could crack open his skull and see what's inside, but part of me knows that these things come in time.

I'm taking it a day at a time, and I pray for him every chance I get. I adore him, and I hope he can find peace soon. We're taking things extremely slow due to this variable, and though I would love to rip off his clothing, I respect his space and his needs.

I just hope it all goes well.

This chapter of my life is called "Happiness"

Its like that moment in the Pursuit of Happiness, except on a lesser scale.

I was shaking like a leaf. I told him, "I have something I want to tell you, I just don't know how to say it." We talked about other things...

Then I divulged.

"You know I have the biggest crush on you, right?" I told him. He gave me this look, and said "yes, I know," and I just answered, "You make me happy..." He looked at me, and kissed me three or four times (I lost count, my head was spinning)...

He told me...

"The answer to your question is yes".

Yessssssssssss

Uhg... Drama

The ex commented on a picture of me on facebook, and I can't see the picture or the comments. It perturbed me, and has me wondering what was said. At the same time, I don't want to know. I don't want to be involved. I just want him out of my life.

And now, I'm wondering if I should warn Skinny's best friend, now affectionately called Mr. Three, about having a psycho ex boyfriend. I kind of just want to wait it out and see how it goes, because I know if anything happens, Mr. Three will most definitely defend my honor above all else, and ignore my ex's allegations. But at the same time, I'm not sure what he'd think of it all. He's a pretty drama free individual, and I don't want to bring drama to him.

Uhg. Lets see what happens...

Its been a while

I haven't blogged in a long ass time. School, work, and a social life has taken its toll on me. I love it, I won't lie.

So finally I find a break in my life, or really, I had to get a paper finished for tomorrow, so I had to be home to do it. So far, I love college, and it seems like College loves me. Skinny's best friend and I are doing okay, we aren't official, but we have been talking over the phone until the early morning the last few nights :). I'm planning on telling him how I feel this weekend, when he comes down. I have a nice approach to this, that I think will work for a good, honest answer.

I was talking with my really good friend Kippy about it, and he told me I should say "I've been thinking about you lately, and I really enjoy your company. I just don't know how much thought I should put in it because I don't know how you feel towards me."

I think its brilliant, I just need to make sure I say it right. I probably will jumble it up a bit, but I think that's okay...

I'll end up blogging about it, I promise :).